Israel, 1990

Preserve Me

I am standing straight with my arms stretched up, supporting the concrete ceiling. This position is the physical translation of what I feel that is expected of me as a woman in this world:

Be beautiful.
Be thin, but not too thin.
Be successful and driven, but caring.
Be a lady. 
Be a librarian at work but a sex goddess in bed.
Carry all this weight in an effortless graceful way and just be quiet.
But I don’t want to stay quiet any longer.

This column, this eternal architectural element carries my burden of expectations.
The composition “Preserve Me” is assembled out of moments in which I tried to make time stand still and preserve my body when I’m stretched out until it is upright and pretty as the society dictates it to be.
This way I’m good enough for the outer eyes that observe me, and for the harshest eyes of all: my own.

Preserve Me (selection of process)

Materials (from top to bottom): Plaster, clay, silicone, Body Double Silicone, Concrete.

Photography: Kateryna Snizhko